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Our Rainbow Baby is ONE! 

This time a year ago I was going to bed really nervous. I was terrified. I was getting up early in the morning to head to the hospital to wait to be called in for our planned cesearian. It was hard to sleep. I'd spent a ridiculous amount of time packing and repacking our bags.… Continue reading Our Rainbow Baby is ONE! 

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Mummy guilt and my career after #infantloss

Something that is on the forefront of my mind at the minute is what on earth I'm going to do with my life. Before Bear died I was doing a MSc + PhD studentship with the MRC in Interdisciplinary Biomedical Research. She was born early, the week of my exam board for my masters. Everything… Continue reading Mummy guilt and my career after #infantloss

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Our Breastfeeding Journey – Pumping, Pumping, Pumping.

Our not so little rainbow baby is six months old already! She is a very tall girl, off the top of the charts and quite a chunk for a thirty seven weeker. This wasn't always the case! Bunny was tiny in length when she was born and suddenly shot up at about six weeks old. She… Continue reading Our Breastfeeding Journey – Pumping, Pumping, Pumping.

Bereavement/Life After Loss

Our Baby Girl is ONE #2: The Birthday Party

Something I worried about approaching our Baby Bear’s birthday was her party. I really really wanted her loved ones to come together and celebrate her, but I was also so so scared that nobody would want to. I do feel a lot like people think that I’m a bit mad; that’s it, that she’s dead,… Continue reading Our Baby Girl is ONE #2: The Birthday Party

Bereavement/Life After Loss

Our Baby Girl is One! (Part 1) The Fundraising

Our baby girl turned one at the end of September. As life has a habit of being crazy, I'm only getting a chance to write this now. It really does sound crazy when I write it down, in black and white. I have a daughter, who died when she was five days old, who has… Continue reading Our Baby Girl is One! (Part 1) The Fundraising

Bereavement/Life After Loss

Wave of Light 2016 & Why It’s Important to Us

Last year on October 15th it was just over two weeks after our daughters death. We were days away from her funeral on the 22nd. It was her due date. Our little 37 weeker should have arrived then, in the start of autumn, not in the sunny September she decided she wanted her birthday in.… Continue reading Wave of Light 2016 & Why It’s Important to Us

Bereavement/Life After Loss

Our Big Girl is Almost One Year Old

In just over three weeks our oldest daughter, our sunshine baby will turn one entire year old. For the confused, newer readers out there doing the maths from my last post, yes, there's less than a year between our Little Miss Sunshine (late September 2015) and our Rainbow Baby (early August 2016). Yes, my uterus… Continue reading Our Big Girl is Almost One Year Old