Bereavement/Life After Loss

Life After Baby Loss by Nicola Gaskin

Tucking into this book, whilst Bunny was going to sleep and Cub was angrily boobing like the overtired little person he is; I was a little bit weary. Like when I approach Christmas, Mother’s Day, anything she’s noticeably missing from, I’m well aware I’m probably all bout to have a healthy sob or five. I’ve… Continue reading Life After Baby Loss by Nicola Gaskin

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Two Years On, Exploring My Thoughts On Those Who Met My Baby. 

This is something I wrote a year ago, on Bear's anniversary. I didn't know whether I'd ever publish it but needed that mental release of writing it down. It's now become quite important to me to hit publish. I sometimes feel like the feelings I have; the way other people's actions make me feel, are… Continue reading Two Years On, Exploring My Thoughts On Those Who Met My Baby. 

Bereavement/Life After Loss

Third Trimester – Hitting the Wall & Feeling Messy!

I’m sat here writing this at past 4 AM, having been up since 2. Bunny and Chris are asleep. Baby is occasionally booting me to keep me company but I just cannot sleep. I’ve worked so so hard for this pregnancy to be something positive and beautiful. We made the decision very early on that… Continue reading Third Trimester – Hitting the Wall & Feeling Messy!

Bereavement/Life After Loss · Pregnancy After Loss

Second Trimester with Baby #3

I’ve been pretty slack in writing about this pregnancy, in part because right up until the third trimester started it was a pretty quiet one! In the girls’ pregnancies I wrote a journal to them, so I’m recording this pregnancy here because I just don’t have the time for a weekly journal with Bunny running… Continue reading Second Trimester with Baby #3

Bereavement/Life After Loss

First Trimester, for the third time.

The first trimester of our second rainbow pregnancy has been interesting. Nobody has known about my pregnancy and this has made it go so much more quickly! I’ve found myself much more distracted thanks to Bunny. The leg situation was a bit extreme. In Bear's pregnancy I felt similarly, I had work distracting me from… Continue reading First Trimester, for the third time.

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7 Weeks With Baby #3; Initial Thoughts & Feelings!

This is something I wrote a little while ago with the intention on publishing further down the line. As we announced recently on the Facebook page, this summer we are expecting our third child, another rainbow brightening our lives after the death of their big sister. I wrote this when I was seven weeks pregnant.… Continue reading 7 Weeks With Baby #3; Initial Thoughts & Feelings!

Raising a Rainbow

Bunny’s 18 Month Update {Rainbow Baby}

There’s so much of me that cannot believe I’m lucky enough to be writing this about our wonderful little girl. She is absolutely my little heart healer. Her and her sister are the determination in my every day. I can’t believe we’re eighteen whole months on from that nervous nervous August day in the hospital… Continue reading Bunny’s 18 Month Update {Rainbow Baby}

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Bear’s 2nd Birthday Celebrations & Reflections 2 Years On

It's already been a month since Bear turned two, and since the second anniversary of her death. It's such a mixture of feelings. My heart can't quite decide if it's completely broken or bursting with love; I'm a funny little bundle of both.  There's been so much anxiety in the build up to her birthday.… Continue reading Bear’s 2nd Birthday Celebrations & Reflections 2 Years On

Bereavement/Life After Loss

#LittleBearGives: Celebrate Bear’s 2nd birthday with us

A week today our eldest baby turns two. It definitely feels weird. It's the start of her not being a little baby and that's something I'd be feeling whether she was physically here with us or not. But that feeling comes with many others. Her birthday and this whole months brings with it memories of… Continue reading #LittleBearGives: Celebrate Bear’s 2nd birthday with us